If I had a pound for every time in the last 4 years I’ve thought ‘oh look another thing no one tells you about becoming a Mother’ well I wouldn’t be googling ‘ways to make money as a stay-at-home-mum’.
We planned to have a baby. It feels really naive looking back but that was the plan. First goal get pregnant, that worked. We spent lots of time focusing on what you can and can’t eat, counting kicks and searching for baby names.
NCT. Lots of talk about birthing options, a weird massage session where we all felt self conscious. 10 minutes practicing changing a nappy. A breastfeeding session where all I remember was sitting holding a plastic cabbage leaf.
Sometimes its hard to absorb information when it doesn’t feel relevant yet.
Then the baby came. A beautiful baby girl born February 2016 and with her the realisation that this was forever. I told you I was naive but I genuinely couldn’t comprehend the gravity of having a child until she was here in my arms needing me every minute of every day.
That baby girl is now almost 4. She has a brother who’s just 19 months younger than her and I am a stay at home mum.
Having two babies under two, for me, was CRAZY. I don’t know how I survived. Thats not true, I survived with a little sanity and my marriage still in tact by talking. Talking to my husband, finding the right mum friends, finding people online in similar situations and sharing what I was going through.
And this is why I’m here, writing this. To continue talking. To be a voice that maybe someone needs to hear because all they’ve heard all day is ‘mmmuuuummmmmyyyy’ or ‘I need a snack’!